{"id":594,"date":"2024-01-09T16:49:51","date_gmt":"2024-01-09T16:49:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lizziepencavel.com\/?page_id=594"},"modified":"2024-01-16T16:20:52","modified_gmt":"2024-01-16T16:20:52","slug":"personal","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/lizziepencavel.com\/?page_id=594","title":{"rendered":"Personal writing"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-page\" data-elementor-id=\"594\" class=\"elementor elementor-594\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-e832dfd e-flex e-con-boxed e-con e-parent\" data-id=\"e832dfd\" data-element_type=\"container\" data-e-type=\"container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"e-con-inner\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-3f42c75 elementor-widget elementor-widget-accordion\" data-id=\"3f42c75\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"accordion.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-accordion\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-accordion-item\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div id=\"elementor-tab-title-6631\" class=\"elementor-tab-title\" data-tab=\"1\" role=\"button\" aria-controls=\"elementor-tab-content-6631\" aria-expanded=\"false\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon elementor-accordion-icon-left\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon-closed\"><svg class=\"e-font-icon-svg e-fas-plus\" viewBox=\"0 0 448 512\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\"><path d=\"M416 208H272V64c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32h-32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v144H32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v32c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h144v144c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h32c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32V304h144c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32v-32c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32z\"><\/path><\/svg><\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon-opened\"><svg class=\"e-font-icon-svg e-fas-minus\" viewBox=\"0 0 448 512\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\"><path d=\"M416 208H32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v32c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h384c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32v-32c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32z\"><\/path><\/svg><\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<a class=\"elementor-accordion-title\" tabindex=\"0\">Book<\/a>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<div id=\"elementor-tab-content-6631\" class=\"elementor-tab-content elementor-clearfix\" data-tab=\"1\" role=\"region\" aria-labelledby=\"elementor-tab-title-6631\"><h2>To fix a BROKEN DOLL<\/h2><p><strong><em>Beautifully written and gorgeously thought provoking poetry that was like staring into a piece of my soul. Would highly recommend!<\/em><\/strong><br \/>5 star review<\/p><p>During the COVID-19 lockdown in the UK, we\u2019ve all heard stories on the news about the rise in domestic abuse. It\u2019s devastating to hear about, so I thought I would do what little I can to help.<\/p><p>As a writer, I decided to pull together a collection of poetry with all proceeds going to Refuge, who support women and children experiencing domestic violence.<\/p><p>With most people at home a lot more than normal, there are adults and kids stuck in controlling and abusive environments.<\/p><p>My book uses poetry and photography exploring emotions of feeling trapped and trying to escape.<\/p><h4><a href=\"https:\/\/www.amazon.co.uk\/dp\/B08CM9BSCB?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860\">It\u2019s available to purchase on Amazon.<\/a><\/h4><p><span class=\"embed-youtube\"><iframe class=\"youtube-player\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/c3piO-awcvs?version=3&amp;rel=1&amp;showsearch=0&amp;showinfo=1&amp;iv_load_policy=1&amp;fs=1&amp;hl=en&amp;autohide=2&amp;wmode=transparent\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts allow-same-origin allow-popups allow-presentation allow-popups-to-escape-sandbox\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\" data-mce-fragment=\"1\"><\/iframe><\/span><\/p><\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-accordion-item\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div id=\"elementor-tab-title-6632\" class=\"elementor-tab-title\" data-tab=\"2\" role=\"button\" aria-controls=\"elementor-tab-content-6632\" aria-expanded=\"false\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon elementor-accordion-icon-left\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon-closed\"><svg class=\"e-font-icon-svg e-fas-plus\" viewBox=\"0 0 448 512\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\"><path d=\"M416 208H272V64c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32h-32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v144H32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v32c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h144v144c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h32c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32V304h144c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32v-32c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32z\"><\/path><\/svg><\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon-opened\"><svg class=\"e-font-icon-svg e-fas-minus\" viewBox=\"0 0 448 512\" xmlns=\"http:\/\/www.w3.org\/2000\/svg\"><path d=\"M416 208H32c-17.67 0-32 14.33-32 32v32c0 17.67 14.33 32 32 32h384c17.67 0 32-14.33 32-32v-32c0-17.67-14.33-32-32-32z\"><\/path><\/svg><\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<a class=\"elementor-accordion-title\" tabindex=\"0\">Film<\/a>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<div id=\"elementor-tab-content-6632\" class=\"elementor-tab-content elementor-clearfix\" data-tab=\"2\" role=\"region\" aria-labelledby=\"elementor-tab-title-6632\"><h2>First Date<\/h2><p>This is a film I wrote and directed a few years ago. It got great reviews and was selected for a lot of film festivals and screenings.<\/p><p><span class=\"embed-youtube\"><iframe class=\"youtube-player\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/XV9KU_L50PQ?version=3&amp;rel=1&amp;showsearch=0&amp;showinfo=1&amp;iv_load_policy=1&amp;fs=1&amp;hl=en&amp;autohide=2&amp;wmode=transparent\" width=\"584\" height=\"329\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts allow-same-origin allow-popups allow-presentation allow-popups-to-escape-sandbox\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\" data-mce-fragment=\"1\"><\/iframe><\/span><\/p><\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-accordion-item\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div id=\"elementor-tab-title-6633\" class=\"elementor-tab-title\" data-tab=\"3\" role=\"button\" aria-controls=\"elementor-tab-content-6633\" aria-expanded=\"false\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-accordion-icon elementor-accordion-icon-left\" aria-hidden=\"true\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span 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data-tab=\"3\" role=\"region\" aria-labelledby=\"elementor-tab-title-6633\"><h2 style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Mother of Christmas<\/h2><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was happy and hard-working, generally content.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She\u2019d had a husband, once a baby, she knew what love meant.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A widow now, she spent her time, keeping her house clean and tidy.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Enjoyed spending time with friends and neighbours, once the housework was done.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A star, they said, was in the sky,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Shining so strong, they wondered why.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Later she\u2019d come out and see, the light that lit the night,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">After she\u2019d finished the scrubbing and wiping, before tucking up in bed so tight.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In the morning three wise men appeared,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">What could they want with her, she feared.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A peasant lady in a small Russian town.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When they knocked at her door, she was still in her bed gown.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Were they here to take a liberty at her vulnerable nature?<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A little scared, she had no where to hide.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But in fact, they\u2019d heard her home was the calling of the town,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The only place suitable for such majesty to refresh and lie down.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She welcomed them in and heard their story;<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They were following a star to find a baby King of glory.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The star would lead them to a place where a baby had been born.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They brought gifts to give the new-born King, led by the star that brightly shone.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her hospitality was second-to-none, they relaxed and slept, but also had fun.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">After a snooze when the sun disappeared,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They would go on their way guided by the Godly light.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Why don\u2019t you join us, we have a spare camel?<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They invited her along but she had so much to do, to clear up behind them,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She would leave tomorrow, catch up and find them.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The three men couldn\u2019t wait, they got on their way,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She swept the floors and wiped the dishes, she\u2019d leave the next day.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When all was said and done, she went to pack some stuff,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But what would a King want of her?\u00a0 She didn\u2019t have enough.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In a back cupboard, locked away, she found a plethora of toys.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">If he\u2019d lived longer than a month, they would have been her boy\u2019s.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It may not be much, but at least she had something,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">To present to a baby, born to be King.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She went in the direction where the three wise men had head,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Found her way to the city, where before her they had tread.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The star was gone now, she didn\u2019t know which way to go,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Of course, the palace, that\u2019s where royalty would be.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">An intricate building, she knocked on the door, but they didn\u2019t know.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">One whispered he\u2019d heard there\u2019d been a commotion in Bethlehem, maybe she should see\u2026<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A little town, a strange place for a King,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But she followed his guidance, she had to do something.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She arrived in Bethlehem and was led to a stable,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">There was cattle and a manger, but alas no baby.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The King and his parents had already left,<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was determined to carry on, she wouldn\u2019t be bereft.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Since then to now she\u2019s travelled the world with a bag of toys to share.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Each Christmas Eve she leaves a gift for children any which-where.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She never found the baby King, but in his name she poured out love.<\/p><p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">A happy soul, a giving woman, her name was Baboushka.<\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Baboushka, oh Baboushka, you\u2019ll find him in your 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